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𝘐 𝘩𝘢𝘵𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘸𝘢𝘺 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘨𝘪𝘷𝘦 𝘰𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘴 𝘢𝘧𝘧𝘦𝘤𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘨𝘩 𝘐 𝘬𝘯𝘰𝘸 𝘪𝘵𝘴 𝘰𝘬𝘢𝘺 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘵𝘰 𝘣𝘦 𝘤𝘭𝘰𝘴𝘦. 𝘐 𝘫𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘤𝘢𝘯'𝘵 𝘩𝘢𝘯𝘥𝘭𝘦 𝘪𝘵, 𝘴𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘮𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘣𝘦 𝘸𝘳𝘰𝘯𝘨 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘮𝘦. 𝘐'𝘮 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘸𝘦𝘭𝘭. 𝘞𝘩𝘦𝘯 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘨𝘪𝘷𝘦 𝘱𝘦𝘰𝘱𝘭𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦 𝘐 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘵 𝘐 𝘫𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘵 𝘵𝘰 𝘴𝘯𝘢𝘱 𝘢𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶, 𝘩𝘶𝘳𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘱𝘦𝘰𝘱𝘭𝘦 𝘢𝘳𝘰𝘶𝘯𝘥 𝘺𝘰𝘶. 𝘌𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘺𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘪𝘯 𝘮𝘺 𝘣𝘰𝘥𝘺 𝘢𝘤𝘩𝘦𝘴 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘳𝘰𝘣𝘴 𝘧𝘳𝘰𝘮 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘴𝘩𝘦𝘦𝘳 𝘯𝘰𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯 𝘰𝘧 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘮 𝘵𝘢𝘬𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘧𝘳𝘰𝘮 𝘮𝘦. 𝘐 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭 𝘴𝘰 𝘧𝘶𝘤𝘬𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘢𝘯𝘨𝘳𝘺 𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘯 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘨𝘪𝘷𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘮 𝘵𝘰𝘰 𝘮𝘶𝘤𝘩 𝘰𝘧 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘵𝘪𝘮𝘦, 𝘪𝘵 𝘮𝘢𝘬𝘦𝘴 𝘮𝘦 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭 𝘴𝘰 𝘱𝘦𝘵𝘵𝘺. 𝘪 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘪 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶. 𝘧𝘶𝘤𝘬 𝘵𝘩𝘰𝘴𝘦 𝘱𝘦𝘰𝘱𝘭𝘦, 𝘪 𝘥𝘰𝘯𝘵 𝘤𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘺'𝘳𝘦 𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘧𝘳𝘪𝘦𝘯𝘥𝘴. 𝘫𝘶𝘴𝘵 𝘴𝘵𝘰𝘱 𝘨𝘪𝘷𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘮 𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦. 𝘴𝘵𝘰𝘱 𝘪𝘵. 𝘧𝘶𝘤𝘬𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘴𝘵𝘰𝘱 𝘨𝘪𝘷𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘮 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘢𝘧𝘧𝘦𝘤𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯𝘴, 𝘪 𝘩𝘢𝘵𝘦 𝘪𝘵.
#actually bpd#actually mentally ill#actually borderline#bpd blog#bpd fp#bpd#bpd thoughts#obsessive yandere#actually obsessive#obsession#glitcheneedlespost#yancore#bpd vent#angry vent#petty vent#possessive vent#tw possessive behavior#yanblr#irl yandere#yan#yandere#irl yan#yan blog#obssesive#obsessive thoughts#im obsessed#poly bpd thoughts#posessive yandere#posessive#glitchneedlespost
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It's good to feel good, but it's so scary to know how bad it can get.
#bipolor#bpd#cptsd recovery#cptsd coping#bi polyam#bpd thoughts#poly#polyamory#polyamourous#cptsd memes
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Just feeling like I'm a sad bitch most the time lately, a deep pain sits at the bottom of my ribcage, a sickening ache of emotions.
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The struggles with touch and sex in general with people is something i envy of those who can seemingly have no real issues with it. Its so difficult. Im uncomfortable always but certain people can partake in it just fine. Idk if its because of bpd or what.
Its definitely something im only able to do if i have genuine connection with someone, i could not just cause i think someone is attractive and maybe that just means im demisexual? But i definitely still need to find someone attractive of course as well but if theres no personality connection than it just doesnt work but on the other side i definitely knows theres also times where i feel repulsed by sex and etc and im not sure where that comes from cause i can also flip and become extremely hyper sexual, which makes me uncomfortable usually due to impulsive nature of that, never really able to find that middle ground and i really try too.
As of lately ive come to really believe sex and love making is something sacred and is really is the union of two people, basically sex is marriage and for me despite urges and desires, i know that i prefer to view and proceed with that in mind, it must be genuine and not rushed in any certain situation and it's always been like that for me but with the pressures of society and the need for validation and seeing how others can just do it, ive always felt like i was obligated to because the other person wants to or that i must in order to just have fun or live your life and enjoy pleasure or to "increase your body count" or to be a "Man" or to move on from someone or to whatever the case and i feel I've truly only have had sex with people i genuinely care for and connect with but i know ive found myself in situations where its like "uh i guess most people would have sex right now" to where id rather sit multiple feet away then have sex which makes for a awkward time.
I know ive been working on separating sex, passion, love, lust, romance and even porn(porn can be triggering for the healing heart and body imo)
Ive been really looking into monogamous relationships, enm relationshipss, poly relationships, asexual relationships etc looking at them and understanding them more and finding what's best for me and my future, just so many variables that play into them. I don't know where to start and due to shifting self image and just bpd in general, its very difficult to keep a clear head in researching everything.
Plus with bpd we tend to have a favorite person and if we are engaging in sex with them we get incredibly attached and can feel comfortable sexually for once, to where if we lost that person, its basically cutting us off from the one feeling we understood in that realm of intimacy, making it very difficult to move on and very difficult to experience new friends, relationships and finding love again causing trauma from touch and sex and etc
So knowing all that ive had to really become so aware of these topics over the years and figure out what to utilize to my own personal benefit to the betterment of my life
-late night thoughts
#self healing#living with bpd#bpd thoughts#relationship#poly relationship#demisexual#polyamourous#love#romance#monogamous#asexual#unsure#mental health#literature#late night#fear of abandonment#physical touch
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In regards to the post I just made about having BPD and being polyamorous -
I'm also way way way more honest. And that is definitely something I've learned through my polyamory. I've learned more about the worth of being honest and what good it can do.
Like my partners, I know about this depressed blog. They know I'm struggling. Sometimes, I even tell them what I'm struggling with. And they hear me, accept me, and love me anyways.
#bpd#bpd thoughts#mental health#therapy#adhd#bpd favorite person#bpd mood#bpd shit#bpd things#bpd vent#polycule#polyamerous people#poly relationship#polyam#polyamory#poly#borderline personality problems
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Im not even mad anymore
Im just upset
Why won't they let him tag me in things
They are literally engaged to someone why do they care
Hmph
Sad :(
#im still mad but not about this#actually bpd#bpd vent#bpd problems#bpd#bpd thoughts#actually borderline#poly problems#i love him#i hate them#jealous ass binch
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look at my gorgeous darling, isnt he just the cutest? <3
he's just a liddle guy :3
#sammy <3#bpd problems#yancore#yanblr#yandere#yandere irl#sam yhs#tw possessive behavior#im obsessed#obssesive#obsessive love#obsessive thoughts#obsession#my sweet thing#the darling ever#what a cutie#i would kill for him#my bunny#sammy~☆#glitcheneedlespost#bpd love#poly bpd thoughts#dating a system for clarification....^^
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B33 < finalllyyyy finished my beta troll headcaon lineup!! furst things furst, my ask box is open for Beta troll + kids drawing requests!! I need to purractice drawing the sillies
alsooo feel like mentioning, these hc’s are for the early half of the game - I am gonna draw their adult + post game looks because thoseee headcanons are different
like for example!! I hc aradia gaining a lot of weight after no longer inhabiting her robo bod! Eridan being able to express their gender identity in the dream bubbles!
Tbf the art is sort of old, and I already want to update my designs but whatevs
Hcs under the cut…. B33
Here’s my personal headcanons, don’t start shit, if you don’t like, you can make ur own post with ur own hcs BDD
Aradia Medigo - transfem aroace spec
~ Struggles with persistent depression but is recovering slowly
~ Puts on weight after the game
~ ASD
Tavros Nitram - transmasc polysexual
~ bulks up during the game!
~ Legs are prosthetics, he still uses their chair on rougher days
~ anxiety and ptsd, struggles with unhealthy attachments (clearly)
Sollux Captor - nonbinary pan
~ Also ASD + Bipolar
~ Acne scars!!
~ Lisp is from crooked teeth
Karkat Vantas - Nonbinary he/himmer, poly with masc pref
~ Super repressed about gender during the game, Jegbert helps with coming to terms with things
~ Anger issues as a response to traumatic living conditions on alternia
~ Adult him is very fat and hairy :)
Nepeta Leijon - transmasc trixic
~ Comes out during the game
~ ASD and ADHD, cannot mask well
~ Looks tiny and weak but could bench press you (cuz its funny)
Kanaya Maryam - femby lesbian (she wears binders :o
~ total vegan till she goes rainbowdrinker
~ binds regularly, prefers a flat silhouette
~ gender + sexuality relationship is unique due to pansexual being the societies default
Terezi Pyrope - Transfem queer
~ does not shave, ever under any circumstances
~ OCD, has a lotttt of rituals
~ transed her gender pre game due to flarping
Vriska Serket - Transfem lesbian
~ ASPD, doing treatment, symptoms lesson as she gets older
~ has severe scarring on her left side, when she is younger she hides scarring via makeup and long clothes cuz teenage insecurity she grows out of
~ same as terezi, flarping helped her come out, terezi and her are very close cuz of this similarity
Equius Zahhak - Agender asexual
~ hypersexual and sex repulsed
~ ASD, also bad at masking, hence why meowrails get along so well
~ has hyperhydrosis
Gamzee Makara - nonbinary ??????
~ bpd, he tends to split on people accidentally, Karkat is his fp :)
~ disassociates often, memory is poor and has slow processing because his thoughts always feel crowding
~ his abuse of sopor pies is a coping mechanism, helps with his sensory issues
Eridan Ampora - Genderfluid pan
~ definitely was a really obnoxious femboy at one point before coming out
~ a lot of their incel-ness comes from repressing their gender
~ ASD, really bad at reading other people
Feferi Peixes - demigirl pan
~ if kanaya is alternia goth, then Fef definitely is, big into counterculture
~ ASD, hyperempath, way too good at masking except for when she’s overtly excited
~ is a vegan, feels incredibly guilty for feeding her lusus
Anyways…. If you read all that congrats lollll
#homestuck#homestuck headcanon#homestuck hcs#aradia megido#tavros nitram#sollux captor#karkat vantas#nepeta leijon#kanaya maryam#terezi pyrope#vriska serket#equius zahhak#gamzee makara#eridan ampora#feferi peixes#tw sex mention#tw substance abuse#tw killing#homestuck fanart#beta trolls#beta troll lineup#hc lineup#homestuck trolls
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ɢᴏᴅ ɪ ʜᴀᴛᴇ ʙᴇɪɴɢ ᴛʜᴇ ᴡᴀʏ ɪ ᴀᴍ. ɪ ᴅᴏɴᴛ ʟɪᴋᴇ ᴡᴀɴᴛɪɴɢ ᴍᴏʀᴇ ᴀɴᴅ ᴍᴏʀᴇ ᴘᴇᴏᴘʟᴇ ᴇᴠᴇɴ ᴛʜᴏᴜɢʜ ɪ ʜᴀᴠᴇ ᴘʟᴇɴᴛʏ ɪɴ ᴍʏ ʟɪꜰᴇ. ᴇᴠᴇʀʏᴏɴᴇ ᴍᴇᴀɴꜱ ꜱᴏ ᴍᴜᴄʜ ᴛᴏ ᴍᴇ ʙᴜᴛ ɪ ᴡᴀɴᴛ ᴛᴏ ʙᴇ ʟᴏᴠᴇᴅ ᴀɴᴅ ᴀᴅᴏʀᴇᴅ ᴍᴏʀᴇ. ʜᴇʟᴘ ᴍᴇ. ɪ ʜᴀᴛᴇ ʙᴇɪɴɢ ʟɪᴋᴇ ᴛʜɪꜱ ʜᴀʜᴀ ɪᴛꜱ ꜱᴏ ᴀᴡꜰᴜʟ. ɪ ᴊᴜꜱᴛ ᴡᴀɴᴛ ᴛʜɪꜱ ᴏᴛʜᴇʀ ᴘᴇʀꜱᴏɴ ᴛᴏ ᴋɪꜱꜱ ᴍᴇ ᴀɴᴅ ʜᴏʟᴅ ᴍᴇ ᴀɴᴅ ɴᴇᴠᴇʀ ʟᴇᴛ ɢᴏ.
#actually bpd#actually mentally ill#actually borderline#bpd blog#bpd fp#bpd#bpd thoughts#obsessive yandere#actually obsessive#obsession#never enough#i want more#glitcheneedlespost#yancore#yanblr#irl yandere#yan#yandere#yandere irl#irl yan#obssesive#poly bpd thoughts#bpdcore#nothing is enough
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✧ Masterlist ✧
Identity V:
"Late night thoughts" Alva Lorenz x Anxious/paranoid! Reader
"Before party anxieties" Joseph x Anxious! Reader
Ada&Emil x Reader poly headcanons
Joseph Desaulnier relationship headcanons
Leo Beck/Hell Ember headcanons (request)
Protective! Naib x Reader (Request)
Aesop Carl x Reader Birthday headcanons
Victor Grantz Headcanons
Aesop Carl headcanons
"Comforting Silence" Aesop Carl x Reader
The Arcana: MC bringing breakfast to the main 6 in bed
Asra x Sick! Reader
Julian relationship/fluff headcanons
Muriel relationshio/fluff headcanons
"Don't go" Muriel x Reader
Final fantasy XV:
Ardyn date headcanons
Ardyn/Ravus/Gladio x Clingy! Reader headcanons (request)
"Five more minutes" Sleepy! Ardyn x Reader (Request)
"Late night drive" Ardyn
(Another one I can't think of a title for) Ardyn x Autistic! Reader (Request)
"A pleasant surprise" Ardyn x Reader (Request)
Pursuing Ardyn headcanons (Request)
Calming Ardyn down headcanons
(Still can't think of a title for this one) Ardyn x Reader who faints a lot (Request)
"In silence" Ardyn x Phonophobic! Reader
"Hidden Jealousy" Ardyn x Insecure! Reader (Request)
Ardyn x Reader Birthday headcanons+scenario
"Childhood crush" Ravus x Reader (Request)
"A new life" Ardyn x Pregnant! Reader (Request) Ardyn x Kind! Reader headcanons (Request)
"Only a nightmare" Ardyn x Reader (Request)
Overprotective! Ardyn x Reader headcanons/scenario (Request)
Ardyn x Sick! Reader headcanons (Request)
"An unexpected raincheck" Ardyn x Reader
"Falling asleep at the desk" Ardyn x Reader
Ardyn general headcanons
Ardyn relationship headcanons
FNAF Security Breach: "A fixer upper" Monty x Female! Nightguard! Reader (Request)
Sun&Moon relationship headcanons
Chica relationship headcanons
Some of my au headcanons for Monty
Monty Gator x Reader headcanons
NiGHTs into dreams/Balan Wonderworld: (Can't think of title) Dragon! Lance x Royalty! Reader
Lance relationship headcanons
Reala (Romance?) headcanons
NiGHTs headcanons (Request)
Pre rebellion NiGHTs headcanons (Request)
Other:
Madhouse Mike relationship headcanons
Goliath x Female! Human! Reader family headcanons
Nuclear throne Chicken headcanons
Portgas D Ace x BPD! Reader
"Nothing special" Guzma x Reader (Request)
Guzma relationship headcanons
"Movie date" Douxie x Reader
Douxie relationship headcanons
#x reader#ff15 ardyn#ardyn izunia#ardyn lucis caelum#ffxv ardyn#ardyn#ardyn x reader#idv#identity v#ff15#identity v joseph#identityv#identity v photographer#aesop carl x reader#aesop carl#idv aesop#identity v aesop#reala nid#nid#nights journey of dreams#five nights at freddy's#nights into dreams#the arcana#muriel x reader#alva lorenz#identity v alva#idv hermit#idv headcanons
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TW for small mentions of sui**de.
Poly-holder* culture is.. I just fronted during a BPD split (which was triggered by something stupid btw) and I'm put in front to put the body to sleep to avoid danger??? Me? Nah, I'm just going to listen to Take Me To Church on loop, dissociate and forget about our ideation. Save me, Hozier.
*BPD, NPD, anger, dissociation, apathy/ASPD ((traits?)) & suicidal ideation/intrusive thoughts.
Idk if I'll be a frequent anon here but can I claim 📼 or 🐺🔪? (either is fine).
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#cw suicide mention#📼 anon#did system#osdd system#actually did#actually osdd#anti endo#did osdd#endos fuck off#osddid#endos dni#symptom holder culture is#symptom holder#bpd holder culture is#npd holder culture is#anger holder culture is#dissociation holder culture is#aspd holder culture is#intrusive thoughts holder culture is
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Could I request my friends from source? Freddy mask Bonnie mask and chica mask? Father isn't exactly the best to talk to..
- Michael.
Custom Android: Freddy Mask Bully, Bonnie Mask Bully, Chica Mask Bully
developer note: sure! i want to do these more and thought this would be easy to do! these are based off of our headcanons more then anything else btw!
also so real on the fact william alters suck to talk to >:( their no fun
First Name: Kelsey, Joey, Fitz, Zach, Jamie, Daniel, Thomas
Last Name: Renner, Anderson, Jordan
Age: 16
Gender: cis male
Pronouns: he/him
Sexuality: gay
Species: human
Source: fnaf 4
Roles: social protector
cisIDs: human, white, dark blonde hair, green eyes, NPD, god complex, ADHD, autistic, asocial
transIDs: transBPD, transMute, transFangs, transHarmful, transBully, transGaslighter, transManipulator, transDeity, transBlackBlood
Other Labels: poly
Appearance:
First Name: Jeremy, Davey, Alex, Nico, Nickolas, Mark
Last Name: Carver, Johnson, Fitzgerald
Age: 16
Gender: cis male
Pronouns: he/him
Sexuality: bisexual
Species: human
Source: fnaf 4
Roles: protector, kinda keeps the other two in line
cisIDs: human, black, black hair, brown eyes, tooth gap, bipolar 2, asocial
transIDs: transHarmless, transBPD, transDepressed, transGAD, transHarmed, transPurpleEyes, transPurpleBlood, transGlowingEyes
trisIDs: trisFangs
Other Labels: ambi
Appearance:
First Name: Lucien, Simon, Noah
Last Name: Jones, Williams
Age: 16
Gender: cis male
Pronouns: he/him
Sexuality: asexual, bi
Species: human
Source: fnaf 4
Roles: prankster, mischief maker
cisIDs: human, black, dark brown hair, brown eyes, ASPD, destine, DPD, BPD, obsessive, codependent
transIDs: transHarmful, transBully, transAbuser, transYandere, transFangs, transHeartPupils
Other Labels: poly, most destructive out of them all
Appearance:
i hope you enjoy them!! i kinda had fun making them but faceclaims kinda hard to find
-mod norman
Order Complete! Enjoy Your Android!
#⭕️ CUSTOM ANDROID#mod norman#build a headmate#alter packs#pro radq#pro transid#s : fnaf#c : freddy mask#c : bonnie mask#c : chica mask
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I hate when people try to say that headcanoning a character from the show is queer in some way because they're "just robots" or "canonically straight/cis"
First of all: yes they may be just robots but said robots have personalities and thoughts and feelings and stuff so what's stopping one of the female drones to go "I LOVE WOMEN AND I LOVE KISSING WOMEN AND I'M A HUGE LESBIAN!!!" Huh? Tell me!? What's stopping them?
Also for the second point: no the fuck they are not, all of them don't have canon sexualities, like the most we have is that Lizzy is prob sapphic and some bisexual lighting with Uzi.
You can headcanon any of them as straight or cis idc but saying someone is wrong due to headcanoning Uzi as bi or something is wrong, your headcanon is as valid as theirs.
Anyways uhh... Uzi Doorman to me is a transgender bisexual demiaroace girl with Autism, ADHD, BPD and is in a poly with N, V, and Lizzy, thank you for coming to my Ted talk.
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#md confessions#murder drones#md lizzy#uzi doorman#serial designation n#serial designation v#uzi/n/v/lizzy
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BPD culture is being ambiamorous and open to poly relationships but the thought of your FP giving love and attention to anyone else makes you sick to your stomach so you tell them you're not poly because what if they start loving their other partners more?
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I have bpd but I'm also polyamorous. Now, you may be thinking, "that sounds like a terrible combination." For me though, it's actually perfect.
I've been trying to think of a good way to describe it for weeks. Because I'm the only bpd person I've met whose poly. But I also have this different control over my feelings when I have multiple partners or even people I'm talking to.
Don't get me wrong, Im still constantly working on my bpd and aware of myself so that I can be the best I can be in each relationship. I still have to be aware of myself and admit to my wrong doings just like any other relationship.
But it's this thing about balance. I balance who gets my time, I balance who gets it for particular activity (like one partner likes hiking and one doesnt. So they dont go hiking.), and I constantly think about how the ones who aren't with me at the moment aren't because we've split time, not because they hate me. I think that thought pattern became really healthy.
Partner x isn't with me today, but it's because I'm with partner y. So, they don't hate me. I just am equally splitting my time.
Now things have been hard, breakups feel like this insane heart wrenching burning feeling at 300%. But I work on things as they come. And I constantly work on my FP awareness and remind myself the realities and what not. Luckily, overtime I've been able to maken it so my partners are not my FP. The reality of a FP is that it can be really toxic for that person, so I've worked really hard to seperate people from that. (It's still stupid hard to not have a fp, but now I'm noticing it's always people from work or friends. It comes in waves anyways though.)
We also make sure we have communication rules. Like I can't share a deep dark secret of partner X with partner Y. That's not fair of me, plus they can communicate with each other (my partners don't always all date but they can). And things such as, I can't have an argument with one partner and ask the other to step in, because it's not really their place. They can give me emotional support that is un-biased and un-opinionated though!
We balance what we can and we work on what we can't. Wr are constantly evolving. But it's taught be a new way of being patient and also being kind to myself. It taught me opposite attraction (or whatever it's called where you say the opposite of a bad thought) in a way therapy hasn't. Everyday I think I'm not enough I remind myself things like, I am enough for my partners and one day I'll be enough for me too. Or my partners don't hate me, and I am Lovable. Or even, I get lots of love in my relationships, so I also probably get love from other people even when I can't see it on my own.
I'm not saying (if you have bpd) you need to be non-monogomous. I'm just sharing a little about how it's different for me.
And if you're thinking about polyamory/ethical non Monogamy, please really look into what that means and what kind of communication it takes. I have to work way harder on my communication skills. They've actually gotten so much better too! I still have the occasional meltdown where I can't really articulate what's going on, but once I can we have a conversation. We have healthy boundaries, we check in with each other constantly, we dont cheat (cheating is still totally a thing in polyamory), we work so hard to make it work because we want it and love it.
And if you are a monogamous person, don't try to make yourself polyamorous. That's not fair to you. ❤️
I can share more about it sometime if anyone wants.
#bpd thoughts#mental health#bpd#therapy#bpd favorite person#adhd#bpd mood#bpd shit#bpd things#bpd vent#polyamerous people#poly relationship#polyam#polyamory#ethical non monogamy#polycule
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